April 24, 2019 | 9:51am
“Three days before she passed, she wasn’t feeling well,” Diddy, 49, shared in the May issue of Essence. “She had the flu, and she sent the kids over to my house so they wouldn’t get sick. One night I was checking on her, and she was like, ‘Puffy, take care of my babies.’ She actually said that to me before she died.”
Porter passed away at age 46, leaving behind four children — Christian, Jessie James and D’Lila Star with Diddy and a 27-year-old son, Quincy, from a previous relationship, but whom Diddy adopted.
Diddy says that upon hearing the news, he instantly leaped into “mommy mode” and did what he could to reach his children before they heard the news anywhere else.
“I sent people in every direction to try to make sure the kids would not hear about it on social media or the news,” he recalled. “I had to get to the girls’ school and find Quincy, who was on set in Atlanta. Christian was on a plane, and I had his phone disconnected so he wouldn’t read it in the air.”
Over the years, Diddy and Porter had remained on good terms and often spoke about the kids.
“On some level, I knew she was training me for this,” said the Bad Boy entrepreneur. “I knew that I had to be ready to do whatever I was supposed to do if something like this ever happened.”
In the midst of chaos, Diddy, who has a total of six kids — including Justin and daughter Chance from other relationships — said he began asking himself, “What would Kim do?”
“I was scared, and I was crying out to God — and to her — and almost immediately Kim’s voice kicked in, and I could hear her saying, ‘Make sure you take care of my babies,’” he said.
Since burying Porter in late November, the family has managed to become stronger than ever. Diddy wants to be more present, adding, “Now my kids come before anything else in my life.”
He’s also looking to his 12-year-old daughters, Jessie James and D’Lila Star, to show him what strength is.
“One day I asked them how are they being so strong,” Diddy said. “They said that, in a weird way, their mother had taught them how to deal with death.”
“Now, ironically, they are teaching me how to deal with Kim’s passing,” he said.